That time of the month...

Well its that time of the month....and I ate all the wrong stuff!!! a pie, biscuits and cake, well I am trying to convince myself that my body needs this stuff at this time...with low iron etc... hopefully this doesn't affect the scales!!

Hooray!

I have lost 2 more Kgs I'm so happy I am now at 86Kgs and now it seems that I'm not craving bad food so much I actually want to eat healthy food, except occasionally I do want cake, and my will power is a little bad but a little taste is better than denying myself and pigging out on it later... I have also decided to go bike riding every other day for about an hour each, I hope I can keep that up!

Earthquake shock...

I live in the lower north island of New Zealand, so I was very shocked to wake up and find the news that was running all day yesterday about the earth quake in Christchurch, thank god that there were no casualties. My thoughts go out to all that were affected, luckily I had no personal connection with the crumbled city but many of my friends have family down there who are now homeless. Thank god that our building regulations are so high as it was mostly the older building that fell. I didn't feel the quake where I am but others did! My thoughts are with everyone who's homes and businesses fell yesterday.

Is couscous bad??

Is couscous fattening? because I ran out of leafy greens and had couscous instead, I get the feeling its bad 'cos I'm so full, maybe I ate too much....an interesting thing happened today, my daughter who's four asked me "Why are you fat?" how do you answer that? its bad enough that she picks at her food, so I don't really want her to think about what shes eating may make her fat, in the end I told her that I made the wrong choices and didn't eat enough greens. Hopefully she'll eat some greens!! personally I didn't think that I looked that big never mind just more fuel to keep on track.I've also been wondering.. if they have a free Quit line for smokers to give up smoking, why don't they have a free diet line for dieters, its all over the news (sometimes) how obesity is an epidemic so why do you have to pay so much to change?

Not ready to weigh in yet....

No I'm not ready to weigh in yet, I've decided today is a new day and now I feel more determined than ever, I CAN DO THIS, so I've started back on the plan, Fruit for breakfast, leafy salad for lunch, and a small proportioned dinner + plenty of water... so I'm giving my self another week before a weigh in. I will do this.

Oh My !!!

I had a breakdown last night, after having two glasses of wine I then proceeded to eat 15 Cheds crackers, a dairyfood pudding, and potato sticks!!! it was a complete feeding frenzy!!! I can't believe I fell off the wagon, I'm so angry with myself!! personally I think it was the wine, Note to one self: no more wine!!! well today is a new day.Be weighing in tomorrow so we'll see if this has had an affect....

On the road to weight loss..

That was two weeks ago, the hardest part has been the first five days.. and I believe the the appetite suppressant and meal replacements affected my sleep I could not fall asleep until about one o'clock in the morning, which made me very tired which made me hungry!!! so I thought I can do it without them, sleep is necessary. But the hardest part was when my son got some hot chips and I had to drive along, the smell wow I really wanted one!! I had to grip the steering wheel as hard as I could as to not just reach over for a handful. BUT I DID IT!! I concurred the horrible monster inside 'The Greed'.
So I have been forcing myself to eat breakfast, just fruit for now it's all I can manage after 15 or so years of no breakfast, I have a large salad for lunch plenty of water and a sensible dinner with rice substituted for potato,(I also have cut out bread and pasta) and I have gotten down to 88kgs fingers crossed that I can keep this up!!!, but it hasn't been all plan sailing, getting some what over my obvious food addiction has and still is very hard, its up there with giving up smoking, which I did for about 4months that was when the weight started to pile on so I took it up again, but It is on the agenda one addiction at a time!!! and I have had a few relapses, on the tired week I did go to the shop and buy corn chips and humus... and just yesterday chocolate biscuits I was offered when visiting (bad becky)... don't people understand to offer a chocy bicky to a food addict is the same as giving a former smoker a cigarette.. it is that serious, when you give up smoking everyone goes out of their way to support you, smokers don't smoke in front of you etc.. but when your giving up 'junk' food nobody takes their chocolate biscuits away, or those skinny people just pig out in front of you!!! Being overweight is as bad for your health as smoking so lets support people who not only want to give up smoking, but those of us tiring to give up bad eating habits!